Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Snow Day



The kids did a mini musical the last weekend in January. It was so cute and it was Austen's 1st musical. He was nervous at first, but then so excited every time he got to do it. It helped that his friend Ally from his class was doing it as well. I got so much joy seeing both of my kids up on stage together. I love that they both have my love of music and theater. Addison is already talking about doing it again next year! Now they are both on to soccer!





















Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Working on me

The past couple weeks I have been seeing my counselor again. I started seeing her a couple months after losing Jayden. A couple months ago I felt myself going back down into a place I didn't like. I thought 2 years after losing Jayden I would be in a different place...what place I would be in? I am not really sure. I just hate the feeling I feel and how I feel when I see a pregnant women. It is very hard. I should be in a place now that is so much different than I am. I should have a 2 year old along with my 5 and 9 year old. I hate it. I am trying to figure out how to switch my mind to another place.

If anyone has ever been in a dark place they understand how it feels. I am trying to put myself first and try to work on me and what is going on inside me. I need to do this to make sure I can be the best mom , wife and friend I can be.