March of Babies

This past Sunday we participated for the first time in the March of Babies walk for our sweet boy Jayden. Team Jayden Christopher raised over $500!!! I am so beyond thankful and blessed to have so many people support and care about us. The weather wasn't the best, but I was so glad to be there and hear them say our sweet boy's name.  So thankful to the people that did walk for Jayden. Here are some pictures from this beautiful walk! This will be something that our family will be doing every year in remembrance of our sweet boy!

Love this!

Happy Easter!!!

Balloon Release

Jay and I decided that we would release balloons for Jayden. We thought it would be good to get Addison and Austen involved and let them write/draw their own messages to Jayden. Austen decided to draw a T-Rex. We went to VA which was perfect in the middle of an open field to release the balloons and celebrate our sweet boy. My parents and sister and her fiancé came along as well. My dad was able take the pictures and they turned out amazing! Please check out some of those amazing pictures!

Godspeed (Sweet Dreams) - Dixie Chicks ( Love you my sweet boy)

Jayden

Today should have been a happy day, not a day full of tears and emptiness. My sweet Jayden should have been entering the world today as a full grown baby, healthy and happy to finally meet his family. His sister and brother were so excited for his arrival. Addison talked all about how she was going to hold him and help me with him. Austen was telling me that his favorite dinosaur is T-Rex. It is fitting that today is a cloudy day, I hope it is sunny in heaven my sweet boy. I hope you are filled with the love from your mom, dad and sister and brother. I hope you that you know how much we love you and wanted you. We were so excited for you to join our family, but instead of joining us on earth you went to heaven instead. The reason I will never know and life is still not fair. I think about all the milestones I will miss watching you grow, smile, laugh, crawl for the first time. I also think how it isn't fair that you don't have your mom and dad with you, but please know I think about you every day! I kiss your picture every night. I long to just hold you and kiss your sweet face. You looked so much like your brother when you were born. I can only imagine the trouble/fun you and Austen would have gotten into. I can see Addison being that protective big sister she already is to Austen. Mom and Dad love you so much! I still can not believe this day is here. My heart hurts so much for you. 

A Mother’s Love

I didn’t have to look into your eyes
to fall in love with you.
I didn’t need to hear you cry
to know you loved me too.
I didn’t need to hold your hand
to cherish you for always.
Within my womb, we shared our hearts.
You touched my soul.
You sweetened my spirit.
You gave me memories I’ll always hold dear.
Yes. My heart aches since you departed too soon.
But a mother’s love does not end with death.
For you are my child.
Forever my love is yours.

Disney

We had a very nice vacation with my parents in Orlando. It was I think the best trip yet to Disney. The kids had a blast. Some of the highlights were:

• Eating at the T-Rex Restaurant in Downtown Disney
• Breakfast with the Winnie the Pooh Characters at the Crystal Palace in the Magic Kingdom
• Meeting Elsa and Anna....after waiting in line for 3 hours
• Experiencing the new Fantasyland
• Seeing Ariel (I think this was my favorite)
• Finding the perfect Christmas ornaments

Here are some pictures from our trip!