It has been awhile since I really had time to post on my blog. This summer has been hard. Jay has been interviewing a lot and we are still hoping we hear some good news soon. I have been busy working, babysitting, and trying to keep the kids busy. In the middle of all this I think about Jayden and how he should be with us right now. I seriously go to bed every night and can not believe that this is our reality. I still am not sure why I had to lose my baby and so many people around me are able to have a healthy baby. I keep waiting for a sign or a reason for this to have happened to me. I am still waiting to see it. Some days are better than others, but I am still struggling with finding that reason.
I still feel like there is something that I could have done to prevent this from happening.
