Hard time

I am missing my boy so much today! This day hit me extra hard today and I never know when or why the grief and emotions will hit me. I can't help but keep thinking about the last time I held him, when I felt him in my belly and the joy I felt when I found out I was pregnant. There are songs that really speak to me, they also make me cry, but in a strange way that feeling makes me feel closer to Jayden.

Here is one of those songs:

https://youtu.be/FlDUkp1Ts8A

Jayden

I can hardly believe that it has been 3 years since I lost my boy. As the years go by one would think that it would get easier, but it sure doesn't. I can not believe that in just a few short days it will be 3 years since Jayden left me. I miss him so much every day. I still have trouble with my anger. It is awful. I hate that.

I know Jayden wouldn't want me to be angry, but I can't help it. I miss him every day. I wish he was here. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss him. I hope and pray that he knows it. I still can not believe that this is my reality. 

Happy Thanksgiving