Been awhile..

Wow, I am really slacking on this blog thing. There is no real excuse except for the fact that I don't get to really sit down and sit at my computer too often to just type out a post. The end of the year of school has come and gone and I just can not believe that I will have a 3rd grader and a kindergartener in my house. :( Seriously makes me so sad. I am trying to make this summer go as slow as possible. I do not know what I will do without Austen at home. My heart breaks so much knowing that I should have a little boy running around the house as well. I still have such a hard time with this. I honestly do not know why our boy had to be taken away. It still feels like some nightmare and sometimes it still is.

We went to Florida with my whole family and it was nice to get away and enjoy some pool time and sun. The kids had a blast and we were lucky to have been able to stay as long as we could. It was hard to come back to reality, like it always is, but we are still so blessed. Our summer is busy with the kids in different camps and then a trip out to see our Virginia Beach Family! It should be a lot of fun!

Thinking and missing my sweet boy Jayden

You would have been celebrating your first birthday today. I miss you so much! I think about what kind of theme party we would have been having for you. I think about what gifts you would have gotten. I am sure you would have been interested in the same things that Austen was at that age. Addison and Austen would have had fun helping you blow out your candles. I just miss you so much and my heart hurts today thinking of you! 

Addison and Austen

Addison and Austen seem to be growing up so fast these days. I just don't know how I can be the mother of an 8 and 5 year old. Time is going so fast, before I know it I will be registering Austen for kindergarten. :( Does NOT make me happy!

Addison is LOVING school and we are so thankful that she has the same teacher she had for 1st grade! She is learning and growing just too fast! She will be making her First Holy Communion this May and I am so proud of her! Every time I look at her I just don't understand how she could have grown as fast as she did. She is really into singing and theater which of course makes me happy since that is my background! She is a loving and outgoing girl with lots of friends. It breaks my heart sometimes when she gets her feelings hurt but friends, but for the most part she is a very strong, independent girl. I am so blessed that she is mine!

 Austen is growing so fast. How can he be starting kindergarten in the fall!?!? Luckily he is LOVING school these days! He is so cute with his best buddy Mason. He has been so good at school this year and is coming such a long way! He can even write his own name! Jay and I are beyond proud of him. When we were at his last conference with his teacher I looked through all the paperwork the teacher was going through and could still picture him as that tiny 5 lb baby boy in the hospital. Why does time have to go so fast?! Through everything we have been through with losing Jayden, I am so thankful to have Austen home with me. He is my sweet snuggle bug and tells me he loves me about 100 times a day! How lucky am I?

At the same time I can not believe that I have a baby boy in heaven?!? There are still days that I am like wait this is MY reality! I miss Jayden every single minute of the day! I pray that he knows how much I love him and miss him! If I stop to think about how he was robbed of knowing my love and when I think about all the firsts I am missing makes my heart ache! I just pray that I will see him again and it will feel like I had never left his side.

New Adventure

I don't know why it has been so hard for me to keep up with this lately. I recently joined my friend Katie's team and I am now a Consultant for Rodan and Fields skincare line! I am so excited about this journey and I am thankful to have a supportive husband by my side. Please pass my information on to anyone you think might be interested!

Long time

Wow it has been such a long time that I have posted. This is so not like me. I am not sure what has kept me so busy. I guess lately it has been hard for me to write. This time of year is always tough when it is winter and the kids are getting stir crazy.  Here are some pictures of what we have been up to the past couple of months!

Trip to the Field Museum 

Painting Night out with the girls

Cookie Booth

Seeing The Rainbow Fish with Austen's school

Next stop...BROADWAY!

Addison had her first experience being in a musical. I was so proud of her. She even had two lines. It is in her blood and she can not wait to be back on the stage! The acting bug has bitten her! Love her so much!!!

Happy Birthday to the best Nana!!!!

I wanted to wish my Nana a VERY Happy Birthday!!! She reminds us a lot that if it weren't for her this family would not be here. She is an amazing Nana who constantly makes us smile and makes us all feel like we are the most important when we are in her presence. I hope she has an amazing day and weekend! WE love you so much! My kids are lucky to have you as their Nana! 💜