Fun with Friends

This past weekend we went to our friend Jonna and Shad's house for a Bradley get together with the kids. We always have so much fun with everyone! The girls are so close and it is amazing that even only seeing each other once or twice a year they always act like they see each other every day. I love it! This time the boys really played well too. It was so nice! I am so blessed to have these girls in my life! Check out the pictures!

Caroline's Wedding

The Miscarriage Misconception

I recently was shared by a friend this article and it hit right home for those people that do not know how to handle the whole losing a child subject. This is a great article worth sharing.

http://operationwife.com/miscarriage-misconception/

Hope Groups!

This week I started an online bible study group thru Hope Mommies. My amazing soul sister is the leader of the group and I am glad to be apart of it. I am really struggling with my faith and trusting God again. I am really hoping that when the 8 weeks are done I can feel stronger in my faith and also have made some new friends.

Last weekend

I forgot to post pictures from last weekend. We went to a friend of Austen's birthday party at Chuck E Cheese and the kids had a blast. Jay's mom was also in town and we had a nice visit and tried to enjoy the weather since it was actually nice. Enjoy the pictures.

Austen and his friend Brandon

 Addison and her friend Sofia

Megan and I

 Family brunch at my parents

 Monopoly Game

 Fun at Red Robin

Addison and Grandma

Austen and his balloon

Addison and Austen with Grandma

Wednesday

Today has been a hard morning for me. I have been thinking a lot about Jayden and my heart has been hurting missing him. I just want to scream out loud. Life is so unfair and it hurts me inside. I am constantly trying to find things with his name on it. I miss my boy and I want him here with me!

I will Carry You

The cutest Dinosaur I have ever seen

3 months

To my sweet boy, I can not believe it has been 3 months. I feel like it was just  yesterday.  Mom misses you every day. I kiss your picture and your box every night before I go to sleep. You are constantly in my heart and my thoughts. Addison talks about you a lot and it melts my heart. I wish you were still in my belly and growing. As it gets closer and closer to April, things get harder and harder, especially inside of me. I still can not believe this all happened to us. I am still having a hard time going to church and forgiving God, but I want you to know I am trying to. I am going to be joining a prayer group through Hope Moms. They have been my saving grace thru a lot of this, including my soul sister Jennifer. I am blessed to have so many people that care for our family and especially for you! I pray that you are in Papa's arms and you are surrounded by Boppa, Muz and Grandpa Ken. I pray that Papa is telling you all about your siblings who so longed to meet you and how much they do love you. I love you my boy and miss you every single day!!!